We went in for another OB check up today.Our doctor wanted to monitor this pregnancy every 2 weeks for the first couple months after the miscarriage. I was certainly not complaining about an ultrasound every 2 weeks!
Here is a sneak peak at Baby Schmitty at 9 weeks.
This time the baby was wiggling. It was the most amazing sight! I didn't get to see this stage of pregnancy with Carson. It was so fun to watch Baby Schmitty dance and bop his/her head.
Pregnancy Highlights:
How far along
9 weeks
Symptoms
- Fatigue
- Still feeling pretty icky with Morning, afternoon and evening sickness/nausea
- Eating hasn't really gotten much easier
- I don't really have any cravings yet. However, if I get something in my head that sounds good to eat, I go get it! That is the only chance I might actually enjoy a meal.
Maternity Clothes:
- My pants are definitely getting tighter and I have started to use the good 'ole rubber band trick!
Its amazing how quickly baby #2 pops out! It could have something to do with having a 9.5 pound baby the last time and not doing a single sit-up since. Ha! (Seriously)
- I have pulled out the bins of maternity clothes to start washing them. I know I will be digging into those soon!
Movement:
None yet.
Gender:
We decided we will find out this time!
Sleep:
I am still sleeping pretty good these days. I wake up on average 1-2 times a night to go to the bathroom. Otherwise sleeping is pretty comfortable. I definitely require 9+ hours a night! I am almost always in bed shortly after Carson is put down for the night (8pm)
While Brian and I vacationed in Cabo San Lucas, Carson vacationed at camp Mama & Papa. They flew in from Florida to spend 10 days with their youngest grandchild and had a blast!!!
Of course Jumpy Gym was penciled in on the camp calendar!
And I couldn't choose between these videos of one of Carson's many talents - golf!!! He absolutely loves golf and even requests to watch it on TV...seriously!!!!
Notice that Carson swings left handed mostly but will also swing right. I have yet to find a set of Fisher Price clubs for lefties!!!
This one is too cute...watch what Carson does when Daddy hits a home run over the fence!
May 22-27, 2010
Brian and I decided that it was time we took a vacation - just the two of us. We bought a time share back in 2005 and we have never used it!!! We have always been cautious with spending money. There are always other expenses that take priority. But lately, we really felt we needed to go. Life is just too short... The day the plane flew into the IRS building here in Austin we finally made the decision - we deserve it, we earned it, we are going on a vacation!!!
We decided on a new resort in the town of Cabo San Lucas, Mexico. We really wanted something a bit secluded and very relaxing. We picked the perfect place! The resort was absolutely beautiful and far enough away from town to not be in hustle and bustle of the city, but close enough to make it convenient to get there.
Two of the beautiful infinity pools.
All of the condos were ocean front
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A view of the resort's private beach.
Lounging on our patio.
My happy hour drinks - virgin Pina Coladas. And they were awesome!!
My gorgeous husband waiting at the bar for our Sunset Dinner Cruise.
A view of the Cabo San Lucas Marina from the boardwalk.
A view of El Arco. El Arco is the huge granite arch that sits at the Land's End on the west end of Cabo San Lucas Bay.
- Morning, afternoon and evening sickness/nausea (no vomiting, thank goodness)
- I hate food!!!
- None of the things that I liked during Carson's pregnancy are appealing (cheese, chocolate milk, sweets)
- I have to eat every couple of hours so I force crackers or anything bland down
-Breast tenderness
-Bloating
Here I am at 5 weeks with Carson.
August 2007
I was in much better shape back then, working out at least 3 times a week. Now, my workouts consist of running 1-2 times a week, when I am lucky, and carrying around a 36 pound 5 year old 2 year old.
Yup, its official, we are on our way to being a family of 4!!
May 10, 2010
Here is the first peak at our newest addition at 5 weeks, 4 days.
With Carson's pregnancy I journaled my pregnancy via emails to my family and friends. I created a hard bound book of those emails and photos and I love to look at that book now. I find myself reading it often during this pregnancy to try and compare the two. Now that I have a blog, I am going to try and post a weekly journal about my pregnancy as my intention is to turn this blog into a tangible scrap book one day.
Pregnancy Highlights:
How far along
5 weeks
Symptoms
- Fatigue, fatigue, and more fatigue
- Absolutely no interest in food and a bit of nausea
Those of you that have known me for a long time know that I absolutely love quotes...and one of my all time favorites is:
'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
Alfred Lord Tennyson
This holds so much meaning for me. Through loss, you learn so much about yourself. I have learned more about how strong love is. With each new experience you take what you have learned and some how learn to love even more...love harder and love stronger. When I look into my husband and child's eyes is hard to comprehend that I could possibly love harder and stronger. But each new day, I learn that I can and I do.
Loss
March 5, 2010
I woke early that morning. I was eager to take another pregnancy test. I just knew I was pregnant!! A few days prior I had taken my first test and it was negative. However, I had “that feeling”. I knew life was growing inside of me. I was patient and waited a few days. As those days passed I was aware of the changes I was experiencing. Changes that just confirmed “that feeling.” At 5am on March 5th I took the test, although faint, it was positive! I went back to bed and lie awake for another hour until Brian woke up. I had planned in my head many different ways to tell him over the previous weeks. I wanted to wait. I wanted it to be a big surprise. Conveniently, we had already planned for a very rare date night. That was perfect! We would have even more reason to celebrate. During the day I ran out and bought Carson a Big Brother shirt. When I picked him up from day care I changed him into his Big Brother shirt and headed to Brian’s office. I decided to meet him there since the plan was for him to pick up the babysitter on his way home. Carson and I waited by his car as he walked out. He was surely surprised to see us as Carson ran up to him saying “Dada”. As Brian picked him up for a hug he saw Carson’s shirt, looked at me and said, “Really?!?!” And I said “Really!!!”
We spent a wonderful evening, just the two of us and planned for our family of four….
March 19, 2010
We had big plans for the weekend and I had no idea how I was going to get it all done. Family was on their way into town and we were expecting 35+ guests at our house the next day to celebrate Carson’s 2nd birthday. Brian was on his way to the doctor as he had not been feeling well all week. I was finally feeling better after a horrible virus slowed me down the week before. I knew I would get it all done...I always do!
Around 11 am I called Brian in tears as he waited for his prescription. I told him I think we might be loosing the baby. He met me at my doctor who diagnosed a “threatened miscarriage”. The pregnancy was still visible, but was not measuring where it should at 6-7 weeks. She told me what to expect over the next few days in the event that it was a miscarriage and sent us on our way with a follow up appointment on Monday. We came home to share the news with Brian’s mom who was in town for Carson’s party. I didn’t want to sit and think about what might be happening, although I knew in my heart it was. I headed out to get the shopping done for the party. While I was away, Brian sent messages to all of our guests sharing the news with them. I just couldn’t bear the congratulatory hugs and the subsequent news I would have to share.
All I could think while I was out shopping was, “What horrible timing.” We had a wonderful weekend planned and we were going through such grief. In hindsight, it was perfect timing, if such could be possible. We had friends and family surrounding us and had a wonderful distraction to get us through the hardest part.
The next day was perfect. Although cold and rainy, our closest friends and family celebrated with us and not a word was spoken. The hugs were held a little longer and I knew the meaning behind it. The next few days were hard but they eventually got a little easier. On Monday the doctor confirmed a “spontaneous, complete miscarriage.”
Life
April 24, 2010
Here it is again… “that feeling!!!” But how could it be?!?! It’s only been 5 weeks after the loss of our pregnancy. Earlier that week the doctor had only just reported that my hormone levels were finally back to 0.
Brian was golfing and I decided to take a test while Carson was napping. This time I had a couple of boxes of the digital tests on hand so there was no chance of the “faint pink line.” After a few moments the word “Pregnant” popped up on the screen. My heart leapt. Really, really…could God have blessed us so quickly? I went back and lay down in bed with Carson and I just cried. I cried tears of happiness and fear. I wanted so desperately to start planning for our family of four once again, but I stopped myself. Instead, I waited and waited and took 2 more tests. A couple of hours later Brian made it home. As he arrived Carson ran up to him, pregnancy test in hand and reached toward his Daddy. Brian looked at me and said, “Already?!?!?” With conservative excitement, I said, “I think so.”
The doctor confirmed the pregnancy on Monday, April 26th and ordered more blood draws every 3-4 days to ensure my hormone levels were increasing as they should. As sure as those home pregnancy tests said “pregnant” my levels went from 0 on April 20th to 212 on April 26th to 951 on April 29th and 4302 on May 3rd. We were pregnant!!!
We decided to share the news with close family only. Although we never regretted sharing the news with the world pretty much after we read the first positive pregnancy test the first time and second, we decide to wait.
Our first doctor’s appointment and ultrasound was on May 10th. We saw a perfectly round ‘lil spec on the screen. It was the most beautiful round spec I had seen in 52 days (since we last saw the one we lost). The emptiness I felt since seeing absolutely nothing on that screen the time before was finally feeling more bearable. It was only then that I really truly felt how much I had loved that ‘lil spec that was lost 7 weeks prior.
Brian and I celebrated with cautious optimism. We celebrated his birthday the weekend after and then went back to the doctor the day before we left on our vacation to Cabo San Lucas, Mexico. It was there that I saw our ‘lil one’s heart beat for the very first time. I didn’t see the heartbeat last time. And this was, in a way, what I needed to truly accept that we were going to be a family of four.
'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
I have struggled over the weeks with why I felt compelled to share the whole story of our journey to be a family of four. With great sadness I experienced the loss of 4 pregnancies of my closest friends over the past 2 years before ours. As heartbreaking as it was for them, I was there, I listened, I grieved with them and I learned. I learned that Brian and I could not have endured this journey with such grace and ease without the love and support of our family and friends. I had many conversations and read many stories of those experiences and I appreciate them so much for sharing their experiences with me. As mentioned before, I never regretted telling the world of our pregnancy and now of our loss. And I thank God that I was there to grieve with and support my friends as they endured the same journey. Unfortunately, yet another dear friend experienced the loss of her pregnancy shortly after ours. I only hope that what I have experienced through my friends and our own experience helped her in her journey as well.
We look forward to sharing this journey with you all.
Each and every time I go to post a few updates on my blog, I find myself apologizing that it has been FOREVER since my last post. For most of you reading, you are well away of what is going on in the lives of the Schmitt Family. For those of you that are not, thanks for checking back in. I promise there are many more posts coming...I just can't promise when :-)
Regardless, I chose to create this blog to keep our family and friends updated, but most importantly to keep an ongoing diary of our lives. I hear there are some great digital scrapbooking products out there that will take this blog and create a tangible scrap book. I hope to do that someday. But considering I got 5 pages into our honeymoon scrapbook (before ever attempting our wedding scapbook) before I put it up in a box and it hasn't seen the light of day since (and that was 5.5 years ago)...I am thinking it may take a while to get there with this project. In the meantime, I hope to get more posts up soon. There is a lot going on in the Schmitt Family right now and we are excited to share it with all of you.
Carson said his alphabet all the way through for the first time yesterday morning and he did it twice! Before that we were only able to get to C...he completely surprised me! I was lucky enough to get it on video last night right before bed time when he was picking out his bedtime stories. Enjoy!!! ABCs from Kelly Schmitt on Vimeo.
Brian planned a wonderful birthday for me! We started the day at Jumpy Gym with Carson. Here is Uncle Phillip and Carson on the slide.
This time Carson Mommy was brave enough to let him go down on his own.
We then headed to a Texas State baseball game. Carson just loves baseball. I think its in his blood. What do you think? He also loves his sun glasses! He will actually keep them on! Now I just have to find a hat big enough to fit his huge head.
Carson was hovering over the dugout watching the guys. One of them gave him a baseball. I quickly ran over there after he gave it to him because I just knew he would throw it back in the dugout! Not because he didn't want it. Because he would want to play catch!
I just had to share these pics. Carson went into his play room and got a book out. He then walked over to Luke's corner in the dining room and sat down to read him a book. I just thought it was so cute!
After the baseball game Brian surprised me with a babysitter(s) and a dinner out! Thanks Karen, George and Shelby for watching Carson. Thanks honey for a great birthday!!! And you too Phillip! Its always nice having you in town :-) I was one lucky woman to have 3 handsome men to share a wonderful birthday with. The 6th anniversary of my 24th birthday, of course!
Brian and I have been married for 6 years. We welcomed our son, Carson, in March of 2008 and our daughter, Haley, in December of 2010. We are enjoying parenthood tremendously and can't wait for each new day with them. They bring us so much joy.
Carson was hovering over the dugout watching the guys. One of them gave him a baseball. I quickly ran over there after he gave it to him because I just knew he would throw it back in the dugout! Not because he didn't want it. Because he would want to play catch!
After the baseball game Brian surprised me with a babysitter(s) and a dinner out! Thanks Karen, George and Shelby for watching Carson. Thanks honey for a great birthday!!! And you too Phillip! Its always nice having you in town :-) I was one lucky woman to have 3 handsome men to share a wonderful birthday with. The 6th anniversary of my 24th birthday, of course!
